saxoholic82

saxoholic82 @ 2010-01-05T15:45:00

2010-01-05T20:45:14Z

Everything is great now
I am at the house of the person I love
you are doing homework probably completely unaware that I am doing this
But one day you will find when you are least expecting it
And it will make you happy
I am certain of it.

You are my favorite...
singer, actress, musician, tennis player, female type And..
Most importantly my favorite love.

I hate computers
I wrote you this cute little poem but then Livejournal was bein' a BITCH.

Whatever now I am going to write you a song...

To the tune of Mary had a Little Lamb...

Ashley had a little lamp
little lamp, little lamp.
Ashley had a little lamp.
That made a lot of Liiiight!!!!

Here is another one!!!!

To the tune of Final Countdown

Badada daaa badadada daaa
badaba daa badaba da ba da
ba dada baaa bada ba ba ba ba
ba baaa baaa badaabaa
We're living together.
It's really Great.
We're living together.
There's no Will insight.

What we have is true love.
gets better everyday
I'm having the time of my Life
And I owe it all to you.

Oh wait...

You were the one I choose
folks would kill to fill your shoes.

Oh wait...

I'll be someone to Fall Back On!!!!

I love you.

Sick...uggg

2009-11-15T01:12:56Z

I am soo sick and so bored. This is the second day of this and it is getting sooooo old. When will it stop? uggggggg.
Livejournal is ridiculous. I don't have swine. uggg I have a show in a week!!!!!!!!!! This is really just out of boredom.

saxoholic82 @ 2009-07-27T23:15:00

2009-07-28T03:19:53Z

so live journal is not as fun if you don't have anything awful to say. Although it should seem better because I have nothing bad to say. But, truth is, it is much more fun to complain about negative thing than positive ones I mean, Come on. But like it shouldn't be. This world.

saxoholic82 @ 2008-11-03T21:58:00

2008-11-04T03:02:40Z

MY LIFE is great right now.
    I got into Jazz All-State 3rd chair overall
    District II band and chorus
    ALL-EASTERN!!!!
    Then,
        A new ipod nano and
        Sweet new shoes

Man i feel good na na na na na na na

The Road Less Traveled

2008-10-11T03:35:21Z

I took the one less traveled by,
And that has made all the difference.

But what about The Road Not Taken?
What opportunities does that road have for me?
Would I be in the same place now?
The two roads did look similar.

How do you chose one road over the other?
The way it Looks,
Sounds,
or Acts?
Can you really decide on those simple things?
or is it deeper than that?

saxoholic82 @ 2008-07-10T22:57:00

2008-07-11T02:58:24Z

I remember when this was popular.

saxoholic82 @ 2008-06-11T20:56:00

2008-06-12T00:58:35Z

So
I started to read How to Read Literature Like a Professor and I think I am going to like at a lot. I'm kinda excited about AP Lit. I just need to get better at English.

saxoholic82 @ 2008-05-18T13:17:00

2008-05-18T17:21:02Z

All-state was Amazing. I'm still really tired because I didn't really sleep, but it still was amazing.
It was really funny how that kid didn't make it and the first chair at districts did. That kid said that he was so much better than him.
Ha.
Apparently not.

saxoholic82 @ 2008-04-29T23:18:00

2008-04-30T03:20:02Z

I have a problem
And I just need to talk
With my best friend.

saxoholic82 @ 2008-04-27T18:10:00

2008-04-27T22:24:26Z

Oh man
I feel like a NASCAR driver with only a few more laps to go,
Only there's a sixteen car pile up in front of me, I'm running out of gas, I have to pee, and its starting to rain.
I have lots of concerts and tennis matches And ooo All-state is coming up in Less than three weeks.
It should be good though. No. Actually it will be amazing and I will Love it.
All my teachers are crackin' down. "Your almost done, Hear have a bunch of work to do!!!"
For the next month my life will be crazy.
Hopefully no finals
so I can go to Hawaii in peace

saxoholic82 @ 2008-04-21T18:48:00

2008-04-21T22:56:25Z

VACATION
This time it has been going really
S L O W
I have been going to bed really early
And waking up just the same.
We won our tennis match.
Hooray
Things have been getting better.
Saw you today.
We laughed
And had fun.
And I finally realized that I do not Love you the way that started this whole thing!!!
I do Love you
I did Love you
It never did really go away
It was always there
It was just covered up by the hate of other people
You still are my best friend
And you always have been
And hopefully
You always will be.

saxoholic82 @ 2008-04-10T22:14:00

2008-04-11T02:40:19Z

Mostly I'm just procrastinating but
I've been feeling very strange
Like something is going to happen
I may sound crazy
But it feels like something big
And I'm just waiting,
Anticipation is building up in side of me
I am becoming more and more stressed
All the time.

Music
Such a little word can explain many different emotions
It is really the only thing that makes me truly
Happy
I feel as though music has the power to change a person
To make them love life.

But for me that only lasts for the few minutes the song is playing
And if I am alone maybe a little bit longer
You know what ruins it?
People
Power-hungry shit-bags
I used to say, "I only like people if they sing good,
And only when they're singing"
I still believe it.

But This isn't about that
This was planned to be a hopeful message
Not one of my rants about people

Music has put me into the mode I was talking about
And I'm not getting out of it
I like it way too much.

Music doesn't lie. If there is something to be changed in this world, then it can only happen through music.
Jimi Hendrix

saxoholic82 @ 2008-03-13T22:06:00

2008-03-14T02:30:38Z

You Fucking Bitch!!!

Your fucking class is retarded.
My lowest grade other than your class is a 94!!!
My grade in your class 86!!
Problem there!!
I don't try harder in other classes
I don't try any less in your class
then why am I getting such a low grade
It's because of you.
My average right now without your class is 97.14.
of course that is with band and chorus but my grade is higher in ENGLISH than in BAND!!!!
now let's see my average with your class is a 95.75.
that is a difference of 1.39!!!!
now without band or chorus. 94.7
fine now without gym. 93.6
my lowest grade is a 94!!!!!!
There is a 9 point difference between this grade and my HONORS ALGEBRA 2 class.
well I have to admit that I do like math.
but in English I have a 99.
I hate English.
There is something wrong with you.
ahhhh!!!!! errrrrrgggggg!!!!!!!

saxoholic82 @ 2008-03-01T22:36:00

2008-03-02T03:38:40Z

So I got the All-state music.
Should be pretty sweet.

saxoholic82 @ 2008-01-27T21:08:00

2008-01-28T03:03:47Z

What is this?
People are dumb
Not you three
You've been the best to me.
All the Fucking people!
Fucking up my life!
It's so hard..
living..
Dealing with all the fucking people.
They screw with your head.
Wearing masks to cover their true feelings...
About you.
You never know...
anyone...
How they feel.
People are fake.
I'M SICK OF PEOPLE!!!
My mom talks about moving away.
I say only if she comes.
And
Gettysburg?

Oh you.
Your probable reading this thinking.
Yep he hates me.
But i don't,
I love you.
But then there's that Thing...
Will it ever go away?
Maybe not...
Oh well...
It seems pretty good to you.
That thing that you Love...

What is this?
Love..
Do people understand it?
I know you three do.
I Love you too.
People don't.

"I'm not going to tell him
He might get Jealous..."
I know you Love him...
But does he Love you?

I love myself...
I really do.

What is being the best?
Why does everyone want it.
Will it give me eternal glory for life.
or is it bragging rights?
It is that what you want?
To make everyone feel bad.
Your not a god.
Your not even that good.
Maybe its because you lived here your whole life.
Well then coming from you I don't expect much.

Oh then you...
NEWSFLASH!!
No one really likes you.
And music isn't really your thing.
An 8th grader got a better score than you.
That's sad.

Sure mom I'd love to move away.
Only if I'm with you.
Oh yeah you two can come too.
But I never really felt this way about anyone.
You.
I love you.

saxoholic82 @ 2008-01-24T21:25:00

2008-01-25T02:57:49Z

So finally after five pain staking months my life seems to have calmed down from this hectic thing called "fucking" life. Of course my two really great friends are "still" at college. I miss them a lot, but the people still hear have seemed to settle down. There are the few that are problems but they will resolve at the end of this school year. Which is good. But right now I don't have time to waste my life paying attention to them. Sorry guys I know you will miss it. My best friend, she's back,(read the bottom). She still has that thing, but that is something I can deal with. Oh yeah and the best thing of all, I found a girlfriend, yes I do like those female types. I love her and she makes me very happy. District 2 is tomorrow which is a really good thing I get to play my saxophone all day!!! Then the next day. Yay!! So I guess this is the end.

"If you love somebody, let them go, for if they return, they were always yours. And if they don't, they never were."

saxoholic82 @ 2008-01-02T15:05:00

2008-01-02T20:06:33Z

Can I ask you a question?

Is that your real face behind the mask?

saxoholic82 @ 2007-11-23T01:28:00

2007-11-23T06:42:34Z

I'm doing all right

No thanks to some people

But everything turned out pretty good

I learned that friendships are like packs of wolves
The strongest ones will always fight with the weaker ones
But in the end the strongest ones will remain living
And the weaker ones will die or get left behind.

All life is, is a very short game.
So I am going to take every step I need to to be as happy as I can be and to succeed as well as I can,
And I won't let stupid little things get me down as much as they have in the past.
I am not going to worry what people think of me.
I am going to take my own road to victory.

saxoholic82 @ 2007-11-16T21:53:00

2007-11-17T02:54:30Z

So All-state auditions went pretty good.

saxoholic82 @ 2007-10-25T20:08:00

2007-10-26T00:17:48Z

He is so gay

Why can't he just come out of the closet. So I can date him.

He flirts with me so much.

Everyday he is spending more and more time with me.

I don't feel like this would be a one-sided relationship.(like other ones I have had)
Because he actually comes to me.

He makes me feel important.

He does everything I do (well except band) and he is good at it.

He has had relationships with girls, but they haven't ended well.

He makes me feel very happy inside when he is happy.

He is very cute. (to me)

I hope I have a chance.

This would a really good thing right now.

saxoholic82 @ 2007-10-21T19:50:00

2007-10-22T00:02:37Z

So I guess we're done
Right
We're done
I'm pretty okay with it
And I have pretty much gotten over the fact that you're basically never going to talk to me ever again.
And I'm okay with that seeing how I have found other friends that will not be leaving in a year.
I've replaced you
With someone going through the same thing as me
Your best friend just leaving you to rot cold and seeing them just forget about you and leave with somebody older and that they just met. Then ganging up with other people to make you feel even worse.
It sucks
You don't understand
You can't even imagine.
Before you said "has anyone ever let you down, Derrick" when you came to me.
You are no longer my best friend
We're done
I'm done

saxoholic82 @ 2007-10-08T20:20:00

2007-10-09T00:23:53Z

Why do I have to be so selfish
I have high friend expectations
but your not meeting them
you did last year
I know you have other priorities
and I respect that
I'm not even mad
I just love attention
so maybe I should be a lesbian
and call myself that girl's name
and go crazy
because I just love attention.
Now I know why everyone hates me
because I want attention
and people don't get me
for me if you give me attention
then you will get it back

Will someone PLEASE believe me!!

saxoholic82 @ 2007-10-08T11:50:00

2007-10-08T15:52:02Z

You don't understand
Maybe I should stop trying

saxoholic82 @ 2007-10-07T21:57:00

2007-10-08T02:12:48Z

I've tried
She tried
Hopefully it worked
Hopefully it Will all be normal
But nothing is normal :)
Because I'm not normal
Hopefully the words did something
Hopefully things Will change
Hopefully you got what I said
Hopefully people Will stop hating me
Hopefully you'll get the differences
Between loves
Hopefully you'll end up loving me
And him
But if not
I will always love you and be here for you
In rough times
Because "all people get mad"
I just this hope this never happens again

saxoholic82 @ 2007-10-06T22:05:00

2007-10-07T02:10:09Z

I Hate You
All of You
I am never going to talk to You
EVER Again
You ruined My life!!!